Saturday, October 23, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
I just got a phone call from Chad right in the middle of posting this. Its 8 in the morning on Saturday where he is at. He sounded good, but our phone call cut off and Im waiting to hear back from him.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Anyway, I haven't really gotten into much detail other than stating we were trying. I went of the pill while Chad was training in Mojave Viper during the whole month of July. Well I was oblivious to the fact that my body needed time to get back to normal after being on BC or 4 years. It took me almost 3 full months to finally get my good ol' aunt flow. Those first couple of months, I was convinced I had gotten pregnant. I had crazy symptoms I have never had before, and of course no period. But It ended up just being my body trying to get back on track making my own horomones again. So I guess technically speaking, September and October have been the only months I have ovulated. So maybe I should say it's only been 2 months that I actually could've gotten pregnant. This month I figured out how to tell I was ovulating and we did the "love dance" that entire time. One thing they don't tell you in Sex Ed, is that there's only maybe a week out of every month that you can actually get pregnant. I was under the impression until not to long ago that it could really happen at any point in time. Anyhow, I'm close to being 2 weeks post ovulation. I started taking tests about 5 days ago because I just wasn't feeling myself. I knew it was early to start testing, but I really had no idea what as going on. I started to get very fatigue. I was ready for bed by 8 o'clock. Which is VERY early or me. I had some slight cramping, nausea, and my emotions have been getting the best of me. And all of this started not too long after I stopped ovulating. Well up until last night all I got was negatives, I wasn't very surprised, because even if I was, it would most likely be to early to tell... Now to start with last night...
I got some Dollar store tests, after doing a lot of research, they work just as well as name brand tests. And spending $8- $15 every time I wanted to test was getting out of control. I bought 4 and said I would take one every other day, or every day. When I ran out of those, and still had no period I would keep taking them. Last night I took one after we got home from San Diego, just to see. I sat there and watched for the result, within like 1 minute I only saw a negative, so I brushed it off and we got ready to go to the hot tub. Once we got back room the hot tub, I was curious to see it again, I guess just to put my mind at ease before bed. Well low and behold, there was a VERY faint positive line. I freaked out! I asked Chad if he could see it and he saw it too. So it wasn't just in my head. But then he reminded me that it had been after 10 minutes and you aren't suppose to acknowledge anything after that time frame. I've had some evaporation lines on some of the others, but none that were in that exact spot and were pink in color. My heart started pounding. That was my last test that I had at the house, so I headed over to Walgreens at like 10 to grab some others since the dollar store was closed and I didn't want to wait til the next day. I prayed the entire way there, begging and hoping for me to be pregnant. Once I rushed to the store and back I took another one, saving the other for the morning. Well, it came out negative, no faint line or anything, as did the the morning test...
I was devastated. I guess it is my fault I got my hopes up so fast. As for now, I'm guessing we didn't get pregnant this month, and it must have just been an evaporation line since I looked back at it about 30 min later. I have one more test, but I'm not testing again until I see whether my period comes or not. Which is in about 3 days.
We were really hoping it would happen this month, since it's the last time it could've happened before Chad left. But I am trying to stay positive. And Chad has been so patient with me, and he has really lifted me up with every negative I have cried over. I just pray that it happens once he gets back. I know it's early to think this, but I don't want to be one of those women who can't ever get pregnant, or that it takes like 5 years of trying. Everyone has reassured me that it will happen when it suppose to, but I honestly hate that saying. Makes my heart sting because I know we will be amazing parents. And I look at others who got pregnant, and really didn't want r planned for it to happen. One day, I pray that we will be given the gift we want so bad. And baby dust to all those who want it just as bad!
So yesterday we took a trip down to San Diego and spent a few hours at Sea World. We planned on going to see the new baby penguin, but after a 30 min dolphin show and other stuff we were ready to get out o there. It was packed full because of the Halloween stuff going on. Lot's of cute kids in costumes. We probably would've stayed longer, but we don't handle big crowds very well. haha. We'd rather be homebodies. :) After Sea World we headed downtown went to the mall and had dinner at TGI Fridays. It was a good busy day. It's been cold and rainy here, but yesterday we didn't get much rain so it turned out to be a good day to go to Sea World. The dolphin and whale show we saw was amazing! I highly recommend it!
^^^^^^They had snakes and a legless lizard to pet. You know I had to get in line with all the other kids to get a good feel of the reptiles. haha
I didn't get many pictures because my camera died not too long after being there...which is what happened last year when we went. haha. But we got our picture drawn by a cartoon artist. I've always wanted to do one of those to see what we would look like. t came out pretty funny. I KNEW that he would make my smile huge, because hey, I've got a big smile. And I look like a mix between Bugs Bunny and a 12 year old! lol. I personally feel like Chads picture looks nothing like him. He looks like a meat head! I think I hurt the artists feeling because I made a comment about it, totally just poking fun, well he was quick to say he thought he got it spot on. It was all in good fun and love that every time I look at it I can't help but laugh. :)
Today we had a list of stuff to do. Go to AT&T to get Chad's cell phone turned off for deployment, but we got there and their system was down so they gave us a number to call tomorrow. Chad had to get a haircut, we went to Lowes and got an alarm to put on the front door. That makes me feel a lot better about being by myself while my big muscular husband is gone. :) And as I'm writing this, Chad is packing up all of his gear. Makes me sad that he's already packing up to leave for Afghanistan...
Now I'm off to make dinner! We are watching the Colts game of course and we'll be having hoagies. Yumm!
Friday, October 15, 2010
So on my birthday shopping fun day, I of course got decorations for the house. I'd rather buy house stuff over than anything else, clothes, jewelery, ANYTHING! I got some fall decorations because I didn't have any. A table cloth and some autumn candles. I got the little last touches to some places in the house. I'm finally happy with our bathroom and how it has come together. Now if only I could pant these dang apartment walls...
Here are some other random spots in the house I have gotten fall decor for..
Tonight I tried out a new recipe. I got it from my Slow Cooker Bible. It was chicken and black bean chili. Yummmo!! It was so easy and so delicious. My crock pot is one of my favorites! So easy to just throw everything in in the morning, and there's endless possibilities. I put a little sour cream on mine. I will definitely be making this again!
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Isn't he such a little cutie!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
We recently got home from Pre-deployment leave. In some ways it was nice to be back in Arkansas. Mostly because I knew how much it meant to Chad to be there and see his family and friends. I did see some of my close friends also..I miss them so much. But this is my home. I have built my life up here this past year. I have amazing friends here, our own home, and my little family that I adore. While I was back in Arkansas, I felt suffocated. We weren't in our own place, we didn't have our own vehicle to come and go as we please. Besides I forget how completely different the atmosphere is there. I've always been a city girl. Where everything is fast pace and lots to do. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't want to raise a family here in Cali, but right now, I prefer it here. Which is odd being how I was so homesick when I first moved here last t October. But at the time, Arkansas was all I really knew. California is an amazing place. Somewhere I never thought I'd have the chance to visit, much less live. I am so lucky to have had this experience, and I hoping that when it comes time to move back to our small town life style, I will be ready. That's one thing I am so scared of. Is moving home...having to start all over. Chad reassures me we will be ok, so I'm keeping faith in his words.
So I am glad to be back, I just wish our time here wasn't so limited.