Tuesday, August 3, 2010

August Already?!?

Chad comes home this week! Its been a long 5 weeks! But at the same time I can't believe its been that long. I can hardly wait. One blessing of being in th Marine Corps is falling in love over and over again. The most amazing feeling in the world to see his face after a long period of time. Makes me smile just thinking about it.

This month is always a little hard. My moms birthay on the 13th. So crazy that she would be 39 this year. It's been 13 years. Time flyies by, but not one day goes by that I don't miss her. It's always hard for me to talk about her, guess I never really got over it, nor do I think I ever will. I wish I had some pictures to put up. She was absolutely gorgeous and Im flattered when people tell me I look so much like her. She truly is my very own Marilyn Monroe.

I love you Mom, you're always in my heart and I cant wait to meet you all over again. Wish you were here to meet Chad. He's truly amazing and I wonder if you sent him to me yourself. I live though you everyday and wear your initals on my back, knowing you are always with me. The next tattoo will be for you too. All of my tattoos are for you. I miss you terribly. I will always be your little 6 year old daughter...just the way I was when you left. I love you...with all of my heart.

"I love thee with the breath, smiles, tears of all my life...and if God choose, I shall love thee better after death."

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Marriage

Marriage in California seems like such a terrible thing to those who arent married. Carly and I went out tonight and evertime I told someone I was married, they had something negative to say. " You're so young, it's not going to work out, why did you get married, why did you marry a Marine, and yada.. ANNOYING. First of all, why do people usually get married? Because they love eachother and when you know, you just know. Its not like I went scouting out to find a Marine. I never thought in a million years I would be living this lifestyle, but I wouldnt change it for the world. One guy even had the balls to promise me that we wont work out. His exact words," in a couple years you will get divorced and you will remember me telling you it wouldnt work out." Wow... people really think that just because I am married to a Marine, it taints my marriage. I will never understand why people are so bitter. I love my husband and only he and I know the love we share for eachother. I could care less about trying to prove people wrong, I just wish I could avoid rude comments. Makes me want to never leave the house, because Im constantly being judged for being married. It just hurts my hear, but at the same time, Im going to be judged the rest of my life. Im the happiest I have ever been and I think marriage is one of the most precious things you can ever have. It's a shame others don't view it the same way.

I miss Chad so much. I can't wait for him to be home. Everyone leaves me alone while he's around. Its like the ring on my finger means nothing if hes not there in person. Exactly why I dont go out much. Im so thankful for what I have with Chad and the life we share. I found my soul mate.. Chads the perfect gentleman and always has been. One of the first things I loved about him. He's respectful and keeps me safe as much as he can. I am so lucky. I live my life to please Chad. I want to make him just as happy as he makes me.

Im exhausted and I think I might have broken one of my toes tonight. haha. We'll see how if feels/looks in the morning. I cant wait to hear Chads voice. I wish he was here tonight. This bed and house gets so lonely without him.