What a week!!

It has definitely been an eventful week! The most exciting part is that I found out a good friend of mine is pregnant!!! I am sooooo excited for Maxx and Emily. They've been wanting a baby ever since we have met them. They are going to make wonderful parents and I can't wait to spoil that baby rotten!! Congrats Emily and Maxx!!!! This picture was taken when they got the official news from the doctor!! :)


I finally got to talk to Chad last night. Poor guy is sick. There's a stomach bug going around, and sure enough, he got it. It seems like he just got over having food poisoning and now this. Chad has the weakest stomach out of anyone I have ever met, so really I'm not surprised he got it. He kept telling me he wanted me to go get him...it broke my heart. I would be there if I could. I love you Chad! Feel better sweetheart.

There was also a fire in my neighborhood this week! I don't know how it happened but I'm pretty sure the family is ok. I saw everyone get out of the house by the time the fire fighters got there. I can't imagine what they are going through. It was a pretty bad fire. You could smell the smoke just walking outside. Right now they've got the whole area blocked off and have been clearing the house of all the burnt furniture and carpet. I hope everything works out for them, I hate that anyone has to go through that.

Today I'm suppose to give our 30 day notice. That's the plan anyways. We've ran into some problems, but I pray that we will figure this out. I want so bad to get out of here. It's hard to be dealing with all of this while Chad is gone, especially when I don't know when I will talk to him next. It gets so frustrating and lonely. I've had to do a lot of growing on my own, because Chad's not always there to confine in or lean on. It's hard, but I would do anything for Chad and I. Even if I have to find a way to do it on my own.

Im so anxious for Chad to get home so we can move. I miss hime like crazy. Only 3 more weeks!

I miss you Chad.

I'd do anything for you Chad

It's been a long weekend. I'm glad I finally made it to Monday. This week I put in our 30 day notice for our housing we are currently living in. I can't wait to get out of here. Chad and I will be so much happier living off base.

Today I might do some more packing, but mostly cleaning and laundry. I wont hear from Chad until Wednesday, so I plan on keeping myself busy. Him being gone like this makes me think about deployment. Chads last tour to Iraq was probably the hardest thing Ive ever had to do in my life. Knowing that he will mostly likely deploy again by the end of this year kills me. You'd think that since he and I have been thought a deployment together already, that it would be somewhat easier. This time, I worry that since we are married and closer than ever, that it will be much much harder for the both of us. I depend on Chad. He's my husband and I'm not ashamed that I depend on him. He's all I've had for 6 months since Ive moved to California. I'm not looking forward to it at all. I know that the day will mostly likely come that I will have to say goodbye for 8 months. But at least it will be the last time he will have to leave. I'd hate to start letting this eat at me already. I don't want to waste any time together being worried and scared about what has yet to come. It's always in the back of my mind, but I just use that as a reminder not to take one second together for granted. I need to be strong for Chad. He needs me more than ever. So for now, I just take a deep breathe, put my worries aside, and be the shoulder I need to be for my husband. I wouldn't have it any other way.

Where to start...

Well one thing I'm most excited about it that Chad gets to come home 2 days early!! Its not a lot but I don't care!! Just 4 more weeks and my other half will be back home. Hes had a hard time lately being away from home. And it doesn't help that hes been getting flack from some of the guys he's with up there. I will save that for a different entry..

Anyhow, it's been a pretty busy couple of days. Lots of running errands,packing, and cleaning. Last night I hung out with Emily and Maxx. It was a much needed night. We had sooo much fun and it was nice not to be at the house all by myself. It sure did make me miss my husband though, but I just take this time to appreciate all the little things Chad and I share together. I hate when he's gone but I like that it gives us time to appreciate all the things we sometimes take for granted. And its always the little stuff that we do everyday, like when I make dinner and we sit down to eat, Chad will take his first bite and say, "Good dinner baby, thank you," and then gives me a kiss. :) He does this every night. I miss that. I miss having someone to eat dinner with. I just need to stay busy and remind myself that it will be over soon.

Please pray for Chad. He needs the strength right now. Hes been through a lot and puts up with a lot of things he doesn't deserve. He is taking a hard test tomorrow that will determine if he graduates this course he is right now. Hes at the point where he doesn't care if he does good on it or not. He's just ready to be home. I don't blame him but I know he can do it. People have no idea what kinda of training these men and women go through..if they did I think people would pay more respect to those that fight for our country. Please pray for those in training and in war zones. They deserve all the support in the world.


I love you Chad. I can't believe I had the honor to marry a true hero. Stay strong and remind yourself that we are the best team together and we've been through way worst. This time away from each other will fly by and I will be right here waiting for you. Then we start a new beginning in a new house. I can't wait baby. Hurry home :)

It has been a full week since Chad has left, only 5 more weeks to go!

Just got some great news!! I managed to get the list of things we have to do in order to move out of our currrent housing. And turns out, that this is going to be wayyy easier than what I thought. I assumed we'd have to get our carpets cleaned and fill in and paint all of the holes in the wall we have made. Turns out that any hole smaller than a dime, I dont even have to worry about. So I have to do ZERO filling and painting!!! And as far as carpet goes, as long as we dont have bad stains (which we dont), all we have to do is vacuum it before we leave. YAY!!! This is going to be soooo easy. I was stressing over nothing!

Im doing a little more packing today. I want to do a little at a time, so by the time Chad gets home he wont have to lift a finger. :) Well until we actually have to haul everything to the new apartment of course.

The weather has been weird today..It will be sunny and warm and then it will literally start raining and get cold wihtin 10 minutes. So its a good day to be indoors packing.

Missing My Bridgeport Baby..

Its been an ok day. A little down because It hasnt even been a week since Chad has left. Poor guy has been working his butt off in Brdigeport. He truly is my hero and in every way. Its amazing what he has to go through in training. I wouldnt last a minute!! I did finally get to talk to him today. I wasn't long enough...but it never is. We did get to talk a little more through Facebook. Which I will be posting some of his pictures he has put up from Bridgeport.

Today my oh so lovely neighbor, and I say that in the most sarcastic way possible, decided that 7 in the morning she would do some wonderful banging on the wall. By the sounds of it she was hanging something up..and of course it was on the wall where my head was just on the other side of! She either stopped or stopped long enough for me to fall back asleep. I wasnt feeling well this morning so I let myself sleep in a little bit. Ive been kinda down today so I didnt do any of the errands I planned on doing today. But tomorrow, everything will for sure get done.

On a better note, our applications got accepted for the apartment!!!! I knew we would but its nice to know we officially have somewhere to live now! We got assigned our apartment and everything already. Tomorrow I just need to go by so they can have a copy on my social security #. Then I will get all of the imformation and will sign the lease!!! Im sooooo excited to move. I think us living off of base is going to relieve a lot of stress Chad and I have. We wont be surround by military life 24/7!!

Now Im off to do some more early packing!

Happy 7th month Anniversary to us!

Today is Chad and I's anniversary! I can't believe that in only 5 more months, we will have been married for 1 year. It's gone by so fast. I wish he could be here to share it with me.

Today has been a lazy day. I slept in for the first time this week and it felt good. I do like getting up earlier so I dont feel like I slept my day away...but I need the extras Zzz's. Im thinking about starting my project on painting the bedroom furniture. Maybe I will start that later one this week. Right now Im just doing some laundry and playing some Farmville. :) Its nice to have a full day of nothing going on.

This post is mainly to celebrate my Anniversary. So happy 7 months Chad! I love you more than words could ever possibly explain. I cant wait to spend the rest of my life with you!

Im exhausted..

I've been going a mile a minute today! Now I'm barely staying awake! Ive been like a walking zombie this past week...

There's so much that has happened today and can't even think about what I want to write about first! I did some shopping today at Target with Christine and little Alexia. She did most of the shopping. I was trying to refrain from buying everything in there! Target is my favorite! We looked at some outfits for Alexia..so of course I said "awww look how cute" like a million times while we were in the baby section. I saw the cutest onsie set that I almost bought just to have for whenever we have a little Harlow. :) I cannot wait until we have kids. I know we are going to wait..but when that day comes I will be overfilled with joy! My whole life Ive wanted to be a mommy. I pray that we get the little Harlow Monroe Wade that Chad and I talk about so much. Sometimes I think its so crazy that we are so set on having a little girl that we dont even think about having a little boy. Watch...we will have a boy first. lol I dont mind what we have first, I just have all my baby experience with little girls. I be so grateful with whatever God blesses us with. All that cute baby stuff got me thinking about babies. :)

I also got a call today from the lady at the new apartments we are moving to. She told me she got our applications and that now I need to bring in some of Chads paperwork and the security check to hold the apartment until we move in!! Im soooo excited I can hardly take it! I want to start packing now!

When I went to Walmart to pick up some ink for the copier,to print off Chads paperwork, the funniest thing happened! Im walking behind this lady and her young son pretty much the whole way through the parking lot...of course I didnt think anything of it. Once we get in the store I end up walking past her and seeing her face and thought, "Boy she looks familiar." Then it hit me,,was this Kandee Johnson. It really looks like Kandee. So I do a double take and decide to get closer to see if it was really her. I saw her face and new it had to be her!! Kandee is a makeup artist that is pretty well known. Ive been following her on youtube and her blog for at least a year. Shes sooo talented. Ive learned make up tricks,how I cut my bangs, and how to cut my shirts from her. Not to mention shes absolutely gorgeous!! Anyways, I ask her what her name is. And what do ya know, Kandee Johnson. lol I said," OMG I totally watch your videos!!" She was so sweet and excited to meet me. She explained she was on her way to do a class and had to pick up some things she had forgotten. She was so bubbly and chatty! I didnt even know what to say to her! She is GORGEOUS, and even more so in person. She hugged me goodbye, and me like a giddy little girl, walked away all smiley and excited that I met her. What are the odds? Seriously?!? I shouldve taken a picture with her but I was in shock that I actually ran into her. I couldnt wait to tell Chad! haha

I did get to talk to Chad today. He said he would try to call again later tonight. So Im glued to my phone just in case he does. He thinks hes getting a little sick from the altitude difference. And tomorrow they have a 4 mile hike...in snow! He's going to be soo busy while he is there and so worn out once he gets home. Poor guy, but I just tell myself that the more training the better.

Its been a good day. Im glad I have stayed busy. I still have some things I need to get done tonight..I dont know if I will make it because I am so tired. I hope tomorrow is just as busy and accomplished. Its good for me to have plenty to do while Chad is away. Makes the time go by faster. :)

It's been a few months!

I can't believe I forgot about this! My last entry was in January! I guess it has been a busy year so far.

Chad just left for Bridgeport yesterday morning and I already miss him. I figured I would be ok and that this would be easy because its nothing compared to an 8 month deployment. But last night, while I was laying in bed, all the feelings of being alone for 6 weeks hit me. Its like a minature deployment. I know I will get through it and I know it will remind me of how precious our time together is, which is important. Laying there next to Remi, I started missing everything little thing about Chad. His smell, his smile,us making eachother laugh...I sure am going to miss him. The worst part is that all this training is a slap in the face reminder that deployment is in the future. This scares me most of all. Yes it was hard last year but we are married now and much more closer than we have ever been. I depend on him. Chad is my rock. For now I need to enjoy the time we do have together and not let this get the worst of me.

I just got some bad news about a close friend from back home. I am heartbroken, but mostly mad at myself for not knowing. I look up to this person very much and hate that they would ever have to go through anything like this. My heart goes out to her...

I filled out our applications for the new apartment today. I cannot wait to move! Most of my unhappiness here is because of this terrible area we live in. I cant wait to be in our new home...and to leave base life behind. I might feel like a normal person again.

This year has been pretty good to me so far. I have a wonderful husband who loves me more than anything. But this year has also shown me the truth in people. The people I thought would miss me the most..dont. It hurts and I have spent many nights crying myself to sleep on Chads shoulder because of it. The family you THOUGHT you had...in fact..isnt there at all. I am so thankful to have my in-laws. Without my bonus mom I would truly think that I was totally forgotten back home. I guess my new home is here. With my husband and the life we have built together. When I was home they didnt care...so why did I think they would once I left?

We celebrated our 6 month anniversary in March. I cant believe we are halfway to 1 year of being married. I have absolutely enjoyed every second of it. I am sooo thankful for Chad and I have been so blessed to have married my bestfriend. Theres other marriages around us that are failing..and I am proud to say that I would NEVER see that in our future. I cant imagine one day without him in my life. Marriage is something to be cherished forever. Never to be given up on, I've committed my entire life to Chad and our future. I look forward to enjoying many more years together. And one day, as parents. :)