Sunday, December 26, 2010


Is the only thing I can ask myself.

I'm going through a stage where I am always angry. I have very little patience for anyone and anything. I have moments where I want to scream and throw everything in sight. People truly amaze me. And more than ever...I am reminded who truly is one of my good friends. It's really sad..because those who I thought did care about me, actually don't. I have never felt so lonely in my entire life. I have never been so mad and frustrated. People say things that I can't even believe. A lot of the time, I just want to cut everybody off.

What am I suppose to do? How the hell am I going to get through this?

I have all these thoughts and feelings, but I have no idea what to say. I feel helpless..


  1. It may not seem like it, but god is always with you. Your sweet chad is with you..and we are all here for you.
    I'm praying for you to find peace within, and to find a way to get through this all. You are strong..don't forget that. But even every strong woman has her days. Dear..I once wrote when I was sad "we shed tears to wash away our weakness. That way, we make room for a stronger better person to emerge."
    You can do will be hard..but you will get through this. Slowly, but surely, you will emerge a magnificent woman. You are always in my thoughts girl.

  2. Thinking of you... stay strong!

  3. You will never be alone... anything/anytime/anywhere.

    People say some of the damnest things because truly... they DON'T know what to say because they are NOT in your shoes & they do NOT feel YOUR pain. Their pain is different & confusing because they are experiencing something different than you. Just remember their intentions are probably good but don't know how to express it. Just like I told my two kids, "people are going to say some stupid things, just know that they don't know what to say, & they do mean well".

    You'll get through this... prepare yourself for the "year of firsts" as best as you can. Just know each time you experience a "first" that you will NEVER have to do that again... & you'll be a little better next year at that same time. Take it in & allow yourself to feel what you need to feel. There is NO right or wrong in what you are feeling.

    Call me anytime/for anything/anywhere... I'm here for you, always.


  4. I am sorry that the people who should be there arent there for you in this time of need. to them i would just like to tell them they can flip off!

    You have the right to feel the way you do and its very understandable that you are feeling that way.

    NO one can understand what you are going through or how you are feeling. But the least we can do is be here! Be here for you to yell and throw things if you need! To just let you cry. The one thing we can do is listen to you. I know that we may not have all the right words or know what to do to make you feel better! However I do know that sometimes all you need is to just VENT! Let it all out and I can promise that we will be there for that!

    Stay strong and remember your Chad is always looking down on you and always in your heart <3